Gone.

有些事，

总是静静地来；

悄悄地走。

感觉是一种很玄的东西，

不知不觉地，就这样没有了，

不管从前如何。

而我没有刻意去避免，

让它放肆，

随意滋长。

只是，

我会害怕，

历史的重演。

If you want to be happy,

give more,

expect less.

That's it.

　

Things that you will know.

While the works are piling up,

while we are getting busier and busier,

we started to stay up late,

we started to stress ourselves,

we started to ignore people around us,

we don't care how they feel,

we want them to shut up and leave us alone,

everything that comes out from their mouth is just so annoying,

and we started to think:

my life would be so much fun without you.

Yes, probably.

When you first get rid of someone who really care about you,

it would be so MUCH fun.

Getting rid of an annoying person,

hanging out with your piggy doggy so-called friends.

Yes, fun, happy, exciting.

But wait,

they are not going to ask you to take care of your body;

they are not going to ask you to study;

they are not going to be with you when you are upset;

they are not going to support you when your idea is against them;

they are not going to back you up, when you really need it.

Perhaps, all you can see is the fun and perhaps, that's all you want.

But thing changes.

You won't want the fun forever, you'll want to take things seriously eventually.

You are just not prepared to grow up, I know.

Go ahead, have fun.

You'll know what I mean, one day.

周末， 堆积如山。

Don't complain.

Don't be serious.

A sleepless night, again.

Switch on the laptop,

listen to my favourite Taylor Swift's songs,

flirt a little.

Enjoy every little satisfaction I got from there,

that's it, no more, nothing more.

Don't come any closer or it will be a disaster.

Don't be serious to me as I left my seriousness with someone else,

haven't taken it back yet.

Don't push the boundary as it is so strong that even me, being the builder can't move it.

Stay there, just stay there.

The distance is just fine, not too far and not too close.

Curious about it?

Don't be.

Look at what I've just said,

don't be serious.

It's not good.

These days aren't so good as usual.

Things, I mean bad things, happened.

No matter how hard I've been trying to look on the bright side,

still got affected by them.

I don't want to, but those things are just so bad that I can't resist myself from thinking about them.

When I laugh, I'm not really laughing but when I cry, I am really feeling bad.

Yes, I'm so weak recently. I cry a little too much, I admit.

But what's the point of keeping all these to myself without releasing it out?

I will go mad, I definitely will.

Just done with the assessment and have to deal with the assignments.

Feel lost again, don't have a clue on where to start and how to start.

Looking at all those disasters, feel that I'm just a tiny tiny little fellow in the world.

Humans nowadays can do anything but in fact, when facing the natural disasters,

we are just so helpless.

It's said that ladies who are in love are the prettiest.

I think it is just a lie, it is seriously not true.

Love is hurting and tiring and some guys are actually just a piece of shit, nothing more.

I am just sharing what I am actually thinking these days.

Japan, be well soon.

Rotten guys, FUCK OFF.

....

女孩，

谁不想遇到那个对的人，

然后就这样，携手共度每一个日子。

没有争吵，没有阻扰，没有离别？

我希望，你希望。

只是对的人啊，我该怎么知道你是？

看着你，觉得你是对的人，你就是吗？

对我来说你是，可是对你，我不是吧？

爱情，一定要那么坎坷，那么辛酸吗？

我喜欢凄美的爱情，

所以老天，

你是在实现我的愿望吗？

如果是，谢谢你，我不需要。

我不再憧憬爱情，

如果命运让我遇到对的人

请把这份福气，给我的朋友，

让她的爱情开花结果，

让她幸福快乐。

True love never grows old.

对你来说，真爱是什么？

是我爱你，你也爱我的那种？

不是最爱的却相处得来，细水长流的那种？

还是虽然很相爱但却不能在一起的那种？

是让你幸福快乐的那种？

还是让你遍体麟伤的那种？

是受到所有人祝福的那种？

还是受尽批评的那种？

包容你所有过错的那种？

还是要你改正，不断进步的那种？

我不知道真爱对大家来说是什么。

只是，对我来说，

如果，真爱是我必须很爱你。

那么，就算让我在头发花白时才遇上你，

都是值得的。

Don't cry.

DON'T.

Yes I am insane.

我真的很愿意用远离你来交换你的快乐。

是的，

我疯了。

My little happiness.

我莫名其妙地，很快乐。

也许，是因为刚刚考完一科的关系，

也许，是因为今天很早就到家的关系，

也许，是因为我发现一个人，其实很自在的关系。

当我习惯一个人生活，

就请外边的纷扰把我排除吧。

不要来扰乱我的思绪，

也不要来破坏我青衣配红裤的愉悦。

自己的快乐，自己懂得。

不需要别人来定义，

不要顾虑外界的批评。

快乐，就好。

The furthest distance.

I keep telling myself that I will absolutely fine but I just found out that I was just lying to myself.

I am not fine.

You are dying to leave, and the only thing I can do,

is to wish you all the best and take good care of yourself,

please do.

Wherever you are, we are just so far.

With hope.

Here it is, the very first assessment at uni in my life.

Hope everything will be good.

Work hard and strive for the future, with hope.

No such thing, no more.

过了单恋的年纪，

会有非买不可的高跟鞋，

但是没有非爱不可的男人。

某天在 facebook 发现的 status。

Failure.

I who have exam phobia will be having assessment next week,

what is on my mind now?

I am lost, I am not sure if I'm right on what I am doing now.

I am afraid of failing,

result is always my only way to comfort myself,

to tell myself that I am not too bad,

to make myself feel a little bit better than others.

What if I fail this time?

I have been failing for 20 years of my life.

I'm a failure.

I think I start being harsh, to myself, and even others.

Sorry if I have provoked you, I couldn't help it.

I want to be busy.

“ 如果很喜欢很喜欢一个人，

那么，保持一个朋友的距离就够了，这样可以一辈子。

千万不要奢望靠近，人一旦有了贪欲，就注定要失去。 ”

所以我决定什么都不想，继续好好地生活。

如果我还是那么地喜欢你，我还是会好好的，

我会在忙碌的同时想起你，希望你也一样很好。

也许我会忙得忘了有个让我那么喜欢的你，

谁知道？

也许我会忙得忘了你。

也许当一切的忙碌过去时，

我惊觉身边有另外一个人在代替你。

如果，

如果有那样的可能，

我还是会怀念从前。

只是我怀念的不会再是你，是那份喜欢的感觉。

到时我会把它，全部交托给身边值得的人，会珍惜我的那个他。

不变的是，我依然希望你好好的。

我没有漂亮的脸蛋，

没有比人善良，

没有特别聪明，

也没有特别勤力。

我把缺点聚集于一身。

这样不是比较好吗？

那我就会更加地忙碌，然后我就会忙得把你忘记了。