清晨时分一块浮肿的脸。

Life after you.

There is a song called "Life after you", sang by Daughtry,

a pretty hot guy who I like him quite a lot.

Urgh, well, that isn't the point ...

The lyrics of the song is good.

"All that I'm after is the life full of laughter, as long as I'm laughing with you."

I keep listening to the song,

wondering who will be the person that I absolutely cannot live without.

A friend of mine thought that I'm in love when I posted the lyric as my status.

I laughed, and talked about other things after that, trying to ignore his question.

I wanted to tell him, yes I'm really in love.

"Who?" he would definitely ask.

Ops, the most important thing to ask when someone is in love.

For me I don't know who I'm in love with,

I'm in love with a person who is still not in existence in my life.

I'm in love with him who smiles like a sun, who is willing to accept me as who I am,

who will hold my hand and grow old with me, who loves me as well as our kids.

When I finally meet a person like this,

I will tell him:

All that I'm after is the life full of laughter, as long as I'm laughing with you. :)

Ok, stop dreaming here, good night!!! Done-with-assignment mood YAY!!!

Learn to be alone.

I went to bed before 12am last night, didn't awake until 11am.

When I opened up my eyes, I told myself I was definitely going to follow my plan -- go for a movie alone again.

So I made everything quick or I would miss the 1.30pm movie.

Went out with an empty stomach.

"I can have brunch there," I thought.

Indeed, I had my brunch there, with myself.

No, I had a magazine with me.

And I went for a movie, Water for Elephant.

I was the only one, I was in the middle of the empty seats, I was surrounded by them.

Quite fun.

People asked me why did I do that when I could always call for companion.

I told them it is because I'm a freak, so basically just doing what a freak would do.

Sometimes I told them I want to be special, a little bit more braver than others.

The answers are correct in certain extents, not quite right though.

Are you sure that everyone everything around you is permanent?

I don't think so.

We throw our old things at least once in a year, we lost some people around us, we argue with friends occasionally, we break up with our partner.

The person you love deeply might betray you, the person who loves you will leave you, the person who you think is a friend but sometimes you just got it wrong.

What is forever? What will last until I die? I cannot tell any.

So I start having times by my own.

When I am alone, I look at people around me and I can see clearer.

I can see that I have things that they don't and by looking at them I know I should appreciate how lucky I am. Sometimes they have things that I don't, and instead of being jealous, I started to think how am I going to have them, or how to be even better than me while still not having the things they have.

Yes I'm afraid of losing.

Oh, I'm quite release now because I know that I've officially done with something.

What I'm missing is the past, when you were smiling at me like a sun, when we shared everything to each other, when we laughed as if only two of us in this world. I'm not missing you, I miss the feeling of falling in love, the feeling of being naive and smile for no reason, the feeling that how secure I felt when I was beside you. I miss all these, but not you who have changed into a person who don't care about all these anymore. I don't like this person, I miss the previous one who I still like very much. Will fall for a person who makes me in love like how it was, I love the feeling of being in the love river. Love is very simple, when I look at you, when you smile like a sun in my eyes, I'm in love with you.

p/s: I love guys who smile like a sun, won't fall for anyone else.

Motive.

I've no idea why I'm treating my last assignment as if it is someone else's work.

There is only a hundred of words and it is due next Saturday but I'm still chilling and playing around here.

I don't know what's wrong with me, or us.

Don't you realize that we are always tired of working while we are actually multi-tasking on facebook, twitter, sms etc etc?

Don't you realize that we started to feel sleepy but in fact we just started working on the assignment 5 minutes ago?

Have you ever thought of these? Have you ever thought of finding out the reason of these?

I don't know what's the reason for you but for me,

I need motivation.

I say, thank you.

如果前世五百次的回眸才能换来今世的擦肩而过是真的，

那么我们的相遇是在多少次回眸，多少个擦肩后发生的？

　

一辈子很长，遇见的人很多，懂得我的却很少。

我有很多话想说，有很多情绪想分享，但能明白我的，

在一大群朋友中会有多少人？　

我是一个有傻福的傻子，做人不算圆滑，脾气稍微暴躁，偶尔高傲又懵懂，

有时候有话直说，很天真很傲慢，从头到脚都是数不尽的缺点。

纵使是那么的不完美，还是有人愿意留在我的生命里，

跟我一起走过每一个快乐或是悲伤。

他们包容我离谱的无知；

支持我继续犯着犯了很久的错误；

关心我、安慰我，给我扶持。　

如果，生命中不曾有你们，我就不会是现在那么满足，那么快乐的我。　

　

会想念从前每天见面的日子，

然后在不能常常碰面的现在，后悔没有好好把握从前。

　

我很努力地在珍惜很多次回眸，很多次擦肩而过换来的相知相识。

谢谢你们，最近发生好多事，都是你们的声音和信息在帮我擦眼泪。

　　

Durian puff

I love everything that tastes good, and I love it more when it was given by my love one.

Thanks Sooyee, although it's just a picture, haha!

:D

Phew, another exhausting week is finally over.

And I got my lesson of the day, which is never ever ever submit your assignment just one minute before the deadline. Well, if you have a strong heart, go ahead and try it. I tried it today and I don't want to try it for the rest of my life again.

Anyway, assignment was done and submitted.

Going to enjoy my precious Saturday night with my love one!

I miss him who smile like a sun, still.

So, I've a target now.

I'm in the middle of the assignment AGAIN.

I've two sets of assignment to be submitted within this month,

and next month, right after a week after the submission of my forth assignment,

I'll be having the second assessment.

Two months later the final will be around the corner and right after that again,

I'll be done with first year of my law degree and move on to second year.

Yes it is so hectic but in fact, I like to be like this more.

Intensively hectic life engages my mind and stop me from thinking about nonsense effectively.

At least I have a life here.

What's wrong with tons of homework, tests, assignments, assessments, exams and massive readings?

After all, don't we all need knowledges?

No life?

No, it is totally wrong.

I do still have a life.

I still facebook every day, am still chilling with friends whenever I can, still eating as if my life is not stressful, still shopping as if I'm a billionaire.

So, tell me, what's wrong with my life?

Doesn't it same as yours? :)

Define your life yourself, don't care how a bystander thinks, ignore it, if you don't like it.

Yes, live your life.

Everyone is brilliant, we are born to be brilliant.

What I want to be in the future?

Lawyer? No.

Lawyer is not for me. Reading law doesn't mean that you need to be a lawyer.

I want to be brilliant at work and at home.

A brilliant employer or employee, a brilliant daughter, a brilliant wife and a brilliant mummy.

Hey there, I'm serious here.

Set yourself a target, and work for it.

It will be a great motivation for you to keep on going, trust me, I never lied.

Nice day. xxx

I try very hard to smile.

Smile is the best way to deceive my unhappiness.

That is why in every single morning, I'll look at the mirror and give myself a big smile,

wishing that it will be a good day, nothing bad happens.

In fact, sometimes it works, sometimes it doesn't as in my heart I know clearly that it is impossible that only happiness exists.

I still try my best to smile, no matter how.

I believe that there is always a person who stays somewhere in our heart, that no matter how hard we tried, he or she seems like never going to move out from there.

I do, have such a person with me.

Loving a person doesn't need a reason.