It just isn't feel right.

I am spending Halloween night in my room,

I have no mood to celebrate, to think about what am I going to be for party,

to try laughing, which I really don't want to...

Facing a terrible mood swing recently.

I am unhappy, with all the books and cases and tutorials and seminars.

I feel scared, when classmates could answer the questions,

could understand the lecturer, while I couldn't.

I really want to be good.

I am trying my very best to read, to understand, to answer.

I have been spending most of my time in the library,

which I would never do that during high school...

I start staying up late, I start having trouble sleeping,

I start feeling tired and sleepy and emotional.

Sorry, I know I should not complain.

Being a student, my only job is to study.

Studying hard is my only obligation, I have to be responsible.

But I just need a space to tell what I think, what I feel to make myself feel better.

There is no one I can talk to here, sometimes I feel bad and I need a hug.

I hate the feeling when I know my friend is sad but I can do nothing.

I need someone to listen to me;

I need a hug;

I need someone to tell me I will be fine;

I need someone to ask me not to cry;

Stop torturing me bastard.

Now, I may rest in peace.

Today is my happiest day within this week,

I have been through two tutorials and one seminar, and a lecture as well !

I was dying to do the readings, spent most of time in the library last few days,

stayed up until 3a.m. to write the essay, woke up early in the morning to read ...

But, it is all over now, I may rest in peace later ~ teeeheeeeeeeeeeee ~~

Anyway, Margaret and I have found out that there is no break for us during weekends,

we still have to read, read and read, so that we won't feel that terrible during weekdays,

and perhaps can go to bed earlier.

Don't say that we are hardworking, we are just trying to responsible for our choice. =.=

Did quite a lot of things just now, had rice with kimchi soup and vegetables for dinner,

did the washing up, cleaned a small part of the kitchen and my room as well.

Feeling so damn good now ~

Between, I had added something to my room,

just wanted to make my room more ... shinyi-style ~

Let's see huh!

Tadang~!!!!!

Look at two little cute fishes over there ~

What do you think? Are they adorable? =D

See ya ~

I love my neighbours !!

Had dinner with neighbours just now at China Town.

I don't know why they are so interested in Chinese food and some of them were even using chopsticks to eat. Forgive me for forgetting to take the pictures, it's such a waste !!!

Anyway, I feel so lucky to stay at P block, with the friendly and awesome neighbours.

We were on the way home after having dinner.

They are Everardo, Melanie, Margaret and Sam.

In the kitchen. I love staying at the kitchen and talking to them.

They are Melanie and Vicky, Melanie is from the UK while Vicky is from Wales.

It's Katie and Sarah. They are both British.

Everardo and Sarah. He's from Mexico and she's from London.

I was so depressed last few days because of the tutorial and seminar but I'm fine now.

I realised that nothing is easy.

Mexico is studying pilot course, it is definitely difficult;

Sarah is studying physics, it is annoying;

Katie is studying English and she is suffering;

All I have to do is just shut up and do what I need to,

there is nothing to complain about but yes, it is hard.

Sometimes I will think, what the hell I have done to get an offer from this university.

It was happy on that moment but now, I find that it's torturing.

But I have a chance to study abroad, which many people wish to...

Law is absolutely hard and my brain is absolutely all right, not that clever tough...

Well that's not the point... My point is, I just need to work harder.

No more give up from now.

Me, happy birthday !

I'm here to wish myself Happy 19th Birthday.

I wish that everyone around me will have a better life, happy always and may all their dreams come true.

For myself, I wish that I could graduate and get a law degree successfully.

And the last one, well, everyone says that it should be a secret. =P

Anyway, I'm here to give you guys some update on my life here too.

It's much more better since Margaret and Theresa were here, we bought the groceries and prepare dinner every day.

Also, I can seek help from Margaret when I can't catch up with the lecture,

I can have lunch with her, not alone any more,

I have companion to walk around the campus etc etc,

so I'm feeling better, and of course, happier.

As you guys know, Margaret is a kind of person who can get along with people well.

She's chatty, knowledgeable and cute, I feel like I am getting closer with my floor mates since she was here. It's really delightful.

Between, I feel like she doesn't feel like eating here. She always complaining about how terrible the food is, how nice the Malaysian food is and how much she misses rice.

We're going to China Town to get RICE later so we'll probably having rice for dinner today~

And one more thing to share before I go,

I cleaned the kitchen just now, those am mo-s are all babies,

they can't even wash their own dishes well!

Anyway, I feel much more better after cleaning. 洁癖狂 ... =.=

Shopping day.

Today is the day my friends and I decided to go shopping.

It was a very nice day, sunny with a little wind and most importantly, it didn't rain.

We walked around the city centre, looking for the things we needed.

I bought three small baskets and a body butter which surprisingly cheap.

It costs less than 1 pound, it's such a bargain!

And I've to say, it smells really nice ~

We had Mcd for lunch.

This was the first time I spent about RM 20 for Mcd ...

Lisien with Filet O'Fish and Chicken Legend and I.

After having our lunch, we heading to China Town to buy some groceries.

I found Maggie and Bin bin Rice Cracker there!

It feels really great to see something you familiar with in another country.

Lisien, me and China Town.

I have forgotten her name. I just met her today,hahaha~

Jamie and Ley are preparing lunch for us tomorrow.

Pasta, mash potatoes, tom yam soup and vegetables will be served~

After the lunch, it's time for me to wait for Margaret and Theresa.

I'm so excited !!!

I was stuffed !!!

I'm sick of eating bread, biscuits and milk every day.

When I heard that there will be an event organized by Malaysia Society at the campus today,

I decided to go, without any hesitation.

Well, that was because they told me nasi lemak will be served there...

Anyway, I didn't go to the event because I was too late.

Sorry I stood you guys up, hahaha!!

( They asked me if I would attend the event and I promised them I would be there during the lecture, and before I left, I said "see you guys later" happily...)

So Lisien and I decided to go China Town, grab a proper meal for ourselves.

We had our dinner at a Chinese restaurant, she had duck noodles while I had fried rice.

The portion was so HUGE. My poor stomach was perfectly satisfied.

Me.

Don't say anything, I know I've gained weight. ):

Lisien, a friend of mine, from M'sia as well.

Unlike me, she's a third year law student.

After having our dinner, we walked around the city.

It was windy and cold, but it was great because finally I felt stuffed.

And I'm still feeling stuffed now.

Tonight gonna be a good good night ~ !!!