It just isn't feel right.

I am spending Halloween night in my room,

I have no mood to celebrate, to think about what am I going to be for party,

to try laughing, which I really don't want to...

Facing a terrible mood swing recently.

I am unhappy, with all the books and cases and tutorials and seminars.

I feel scared, when classmates could answer the questions,

could understand the lecturer, while I couldn't.

I really want to be good.

I am trying my very best to read, to understand, to answer.

I have been spending most of my time in the library,

which I would never do that during high school...

I start staying up late, I start having trouble sleeping,

I start feeling tired and sleepy and emotional.

Sorry, I know I should not complain.

Being a student, my only job is to study.

Studying hard is my only obligation, I have to be responsible.

But I just need a space to tell what I think, what I feel to make myself feel better.

There is no one I can talk to here, sometimes I feel bad and I need a hug.

I hate the feeling when I know my friend is sad but I can do nothing.

I need someone to listen to me;

I need a hug;

I need someone to tell me I will be fine;

I need someone to ask me not to cry;

Stop torturing me bastard.