What would you like to eat?

I'm thinking about ...

what should I grab for my lunch later. =S

I've been eating bread and maggie for weeks and

I want something good to satisfy my little stomach.

It's a anti bread and maggie Saturday!

Thank you for turning up in my life.

There are many things we need to learn in life.

Life is not all about ourselves, we got to learn how to live peacefully with others.

While living with others, we need to tolerate,

need to comprehend, need to forgive and of course, to love.

I'm lucky.

There is always somebody here to be with me,

sharing my happiness and sorrow, help me to get rid of troubles.

Also, give me their support, trust in me, believe that I could be the better me one day.

I appreciate everyone that turns up in my life.

There's always something that I can learn from them.

Life may be confusing.

But sometimes we can do nothing but to let go.

We should learn to forgive.

Forgive everyone and everything,

No matter how hurt it is, they are all over.

Thank you.

I really mean it.

I wish that all of us will live happily ever after.

I love fairy tale and I always trust in it.

Are you with me? no more, sorry.

Ok, it's time to confess.

I should understand that everything will change,

so do the people around me.

No matter how close we were, they'll change.

They won't be by my side forever, our life is going on,

without caring how I feel and how hard I tried to let every moment stays longer.

Perhaps I was the one they used to rely on,

tell me everything that happens around them,

share their interest with me,

discuss about every affair in the class,

talk about movies, songs and even share the juicy gossip that we know recently.

These are all past tense, I know that, I just keep refusing to face it.

I always try to deceive myself.

I do really hope that it will be with me as long as possible.

However, I'm the only one who think like this, I think.

That's why I feel sick, sick of every changes around me.

Well, probably most of my friends went to university and

started to have their brand new life.

They've made a lot of friends, indeed.

Their life is undeniably much more interesting than mine.

And I ?

Still the same.

Stay away from public most of the time, there's no one new in my life.

I'm still the little girl lingering around my old classmates.

I'm not saying that I'm fed up with the old.

I just feel like there's no improvement on me,

after almost 8 months from 2009, I'm still the same.

There's something I don't want to lose perhaps,

so I do hope that everything could remain the same.

But do you know what is the saddest part of this?

I've the idea that you've no idea how much you mean to me. And that's all.

I'm not tired. I'm not complaining.

I'm not trying to show you how pity I am.

I'm not going to hate you and I never regret being such a fool.

I did feel a desperate tiredness. I wanted to blame. I wanted to hate.

I never success, though.

I'll just leave it.

Time will make the decision for me which would totally satisfied me.

You might say that I'm emo again today but I'm not,

I do not feel any emo-ness.

These days I feel a bit bizarre.

I stop doing stuff that I used to do everyday and I don't like the change.

I'm timid. I just keep all the emotions by myself and

wish that everything is going to be ok by doing nothing.

To be honest, I don't know what the hell am I thinking.

I don't believe in F.O.R.E.V.E.R. There's no such thing.

It's life, it's fact, it's not a fairy tale.

There's no long long ago, in a faraway land story,

so do the they live happily ever after ending.

Open your bloody eyes and confess to this bloody fact with bloody mood.

I'd better stop here, I'm on the brink of becoming a lunatic.

But I'm sure that I will be just fine, better than the previous me,even the present me.

Good luck, everyone.

Movies day.

Since xiao hui is not here to watch movie with me at the cinema, I decided to watch alone at home. It's my private, lovely and cosy mini cinema~

The invention of PPS is really appreciated, my boring Saturday is full-filled.

I've been watching movies from dawn to dusk today and I've finished five.

I'm not interested in horror movies, war movie... etc. I addicted cartoon recently.

They're incredibly amazing!

Here's the movies i watched today:

1 Cloudy with a chance of meatballs;

2 Beauty and the beast;

3 Cinderella;

4 Ratatouille; and

5 The emperor's new groove.

Today I'm so happy with these movies.

I don't know what had happened to me just now.

I was craving for jelly. The refrigerator is empty though.

But the desire to get something to eat just couldn't get out of my mind so I had plenty of the delicious yet fattening CHOCOLATE.

Awww, what a great satisfaction.

Chocolate is awesome!

It's Saturday. What to do?

I'm sick with Saturdays that without Xiao Hui, movies and lunch at Jusco Bukit Tinggi.

Staying at home all day long on Saturday is such a waste!

I've to find something to do, seriously.

I've been a lazy person for 18 years or so.

As I said, everything will change and so do I.

It's been a long time since I touched a book but I started to read these days.

I'm quite surprised of this. I always think that it's impossible for me to read again but it just happened.

Not bad huh, my determination. =)

As you sow, so shall you reap.

I wish that I could see the improvement soon.

Good luck.

My nightmare is over !

After suffering from insomnia for months, I'm here to announce that I am no longer an insomniac!

A thrilling news, isn't it? Well, for myself only. haha ~

There's no reason for my insomnia and there is no reason too why it disappeared. Weird huh?

Anyway, my life back to the normal. Sleep well, eat well and live well.

I have no excuse to lazy any more.

Work hard work hard work hard !

p/s: c: happy always, ALL THE BEST !!!

a lesson from Lion King:

Hakunamatata means no worries, be happy ~ XD

Pala pa pa pa~ I'm lovin' it.

a prisoner, am i ?

Your reason is not reasonable,

it is RIDICULOUS.

Being scolded by dump reason isn't my job.

It's home, not JAIL, I'm not a prisoner.

I AM FED UP.

another ice-cream day, on?

I found this from joyseet's blog.

Miss the time we freaking around at the shopping centre.

How about having another date when mona comes back? =)

Margaret and I are leaving.

Feeling a wave of nostalgia now.

Monaleesa, Joyseet and Margarita, I miss you neh.

p/s: I love that hat ! haha

released.

A week after Xiao Hui went to Johor.

She's changed a lot, become better and better.

My lazy buddy started to study hard, does revision everyday, even though it's weekends.

Her action shocked me, quite serious.

I always wondering if my eyes are deceiving me when I've got her message that told me she's studying, can't reply me that prompt.

I realised that everything'll change, nothing lasts forever.

How emo she was, that doesn't important.

She's optimistic now, work harder than other people are, striving for her future.

I've wasted too much of time and I should start working hard too.

I shouldn't be so self-centered and ignore other's feelings, especially my parents.

No matter how upset I am, I shouldn't let them disappointed.

They've been working so hard to satisfy me.

They let me splurge on anything I like.

They always be with me.

I should work hard.

Stop thinking about stuffs that not related to my study.

I've been in a relationship with myself for 19 years and I love myself more instead of you.

Goodbye and good luck.

to you.

to the old me and the new me.

to everyone.

c:

I feel released.

I used to believe in you, but what did you do to me?

lesson of the day:

don't trust people easily.

when you realised that that is a lie, you will feel a great satisfaction.

It's right.

The older we are, the smarter we are, although I'm always the stupid one.

I hate liar.

I hate lies.

I need honesty.

The right way?

There's always something that we really have to cherish in life.

I try my best to remember every moment quietly. This is my way.

I am not brave enough to strive for every single thing I want and I know that I'll inevitably lose some of them.

I'm afraid.

That's why I can do nothing.

cool proverb of the day.

I'm having a tuition class currently with Ching Rou at Bukit Tinggi.

We learnt proverbs yesterday and I found a really cool proverb:

Only when the last tree has died and the last river has been poisoned and the last fish has been caught will we realize that we can't eat money.

Wow, it's simple yet powerful, don't you guys think so? hehe

旅行。

快乐的时间总是过得特别快，马六甲两天一夜游在一场大雨来临前结束了。

好久没有见面了，一起旅行就跟以前一样，我们在同一个地方，过着同样的生活。

跟你们一起总是有满满的踏实感，就算在一起不说话，也觉得很自在。

以前我们坐巴士去旅行，现在我们驾车去旅行。

感觉才过了不久，很多事情都不一样了。

有时我会很任性地希望时间可以回到某一个时候，然后就这样，不要动。

有些朋友即使不见面很久很久，依然是那样无话不谈；

有些朋友一旦少见面了，感情会变质。

我不喜欢面对变质的感情，尤其是那些我在乎的人。

每一次旅行，给我的都不同。

虽然它们不都是好的，但至少没有很糟。

Happy Birthday Joyseet!

The special day for the special one.

To my dearest sister, Joyseet'.

Wish this pretty charming young lady Happy 19th Birthday, may everything goes smoothly on her.

happy birthday~

Going to Melaka tomorrow with some S3ACY humans.

Yeeeeeeeeeehaaaaaaaaa, enjoy the trip people! c:

seriously serious problem.

So this is a nostalgic Thursday for me, my mind is filled with tons of emotions.

Quitted the job, left behind by mona and I realised that I start blaming the world for everything.

the air-conditioner is too cold but it's too hot without it.

I'm lack of appetite but I just feel so hungry at night.

I'm tired but I am an insomniac.

I want a newspaper but my dad didn't buy for me.

...

I am a woman who close to hysteria.

I need someone to talk to, seriously.

Feeling sick !!

ok, well.

I know I should stop blaming the world and do whatever I should.

I just need some time.

pensive midnight.

I'm weird and volatile tempered, and thus, not an easy-going person.

I've a lot of emotion that hard to comprehend.

I always have a sudden urge to tell somebody my feeling and the one who can fully understand me is leaving later, right after waking up. I can feel the overwhelming loneliness now.

I bought myself a notebook yesterday but she has no chance to be the first to write.

Time flies, everything goes so fast and I just couldn't stand with it.

Quitted the job, will start going to the tuition class soon and right after that,I'm leaving too.

When would we be able to meet again?

When would we hang out again ?

Is it possible for us to snap all those stupid photos again?

Feeling a wave of nostalgia in the silent midnight, with nobody beside me.

And it doesn't feel good.

What starts must end, nothing lasts forever.

p/s: i'm not emo, is berat hati.

dear xiao hui, study hard there,don't disappoint your parents and me~

send me a msg whenever you're free and tell me about your life there, snap plenty of photos for us. Eat properly.

Good luck,strive for your future c: